Saying Goodbye

This morning was not so good.  I received a call that my goddaughters father passed away.  Though we were expecting it, he had battled so long and so hard against the ugly disease cancer and finally today went to be with our father where there is no more pain and he can walk and laugh and live.  Though I know he is in a better place, it is his girls and those that have been left behind that it is so painful for.  They know that he is in a better place but no matter what and how much you try to tell yourself it is for the best, we are selfish and want our loved ones here.  I don't mean selfish in a bad way, I mean we love so much and it hurts so bad when someone you love is gone.  You cant pick up the phone and say hello.  See them for a visit or tell them what's been going on or hear what's been going on in their lives.  We forget and take for granted how precious life is, that it is a gift.  We think that if we are angry or upset at someone we care about and love that tomorrow is another day and there is still time.  The fact is that we can't begin to know Gods plans and the only day left may be today, this minute.  I have so many regrets so many things I wish I would have said to people that I did not.  Thank goodness the girls had time with their father to hear each other.  I guess what I am saying is life is fragile.  Forget the little things nonsense things that we pick on, don't dwell on what is ugly, and live each and every minute you have.  Tell the people close to you what they mean to you everyday, and love each second and appreciate both the good and the bad because that is part of living and when it is time to say goodbye to someone, know in your hart that there were no regrets because the time spent was quality.  I wrote this for my father that passed away a few years ago, and I would like to share a portion of this...

I know that the lord has a plan for everyone, I know that some suffer while others don't and that is the lords will.  Maybe to onlookers the person is suffering but in reality the lord is waiting for the person to ready themselves for the journey of eternal life and that is why some people linger a while longer.  Maybe its the lords way for the family to have just a little more time to "say goodbye".  I Don't believe in goodbye, I believe in see you soon!  A wise person once told me that death is a part of life and when you are born the lord has a room full of candles and some are short and some are very tall and some are medium, and when you are born the lord lights your candle and puts it on a shelf to burn with the light of your life,.  SOme candles burn out sooner than others, some flicker and linger just a little while but eventually every candles flame will go out.  We have to know that when it is time for our candle to stop burning that it is not the end but the beginning and that there is no right or wrong way to say goodbye... maybe its easier to say I love you.. I will not forget you... I will hold you in my hart forever and when I need you I will close my eye's and you will be there and when you look down on me from heaven ,, when you are with the lord I know that you will be smiling because there will only be peace and joy... and rays of sunshine will be your light that can never be extinguished and will burn forever.

I love you always Allie, Valerie and Donna, I ask that all who read this please pray for peace and strength for this family as they grieve  and I ask you all to love yourselves and each other so much that there is no time for anything ugly to take up the space that the lord has saved for himself and has given to us.